Monday, August 17, 2009

motherly instinct

Is it a learned behavior or is it really an instinct? Is it something that is inside women to a small degree and then "activated" by motherhood and brought to it's fullness? Is it only in some of us? 

I have seen stories of women on tv who have babies, but they aren't mothers. They dont give their kids a second thought.. I have friends who grew up with moms that never seemed to "get it"... so maybe it's not in all of us.. but I think for the most part it probably is an intinct. It's probably similar to animal instincts.. I mean, how do mother sloths know to take care of their babies? How do mother cats willingly lay down, exausted and sore while their litter of impatient kittens beat the shit out of them nurse almost all day long? It must be a real instinct... just not sure why some have it and some dont.

Anyway - this post isnt about my kids, it's actually about Chantry. Poor guy has some sort of bug. It hit him last night. He was sick all night and then today has the energy of a dead slug and aches all over. He's been in bed all day. I got him up once to eat a little of the chicken soup that I heated up from the can made from scratch today. But man... why is it that I can't get any work done while he's feeling so bad? I know all he really needs to do is sleep. But I'm coming up with all kinds of things to do to make myself feel useful. Of course none of which are useful at all. As if he were a baby that needed me to rock him to sleep. 

"Do you want me to draw a bath?"

"Do you need more motrin?"

"Would you like some gatorade?"

"I can rent you a movie"

"Would you like a massage?"

"Need another blanket?"

"Is the fan too high?"

"Do you feel like coffee?"

"Want me to paint your toenails?"

Ok.. not really.. but jeez.. it really sucks seeing someone you love feeling terrible. :( Especially when there's nothing you can do to help. *sigh* But that instinct is strong. Hard to fight. I guess at least I have it. Considering I have four kids... and a Chantry. Otherwise who would do all the useless, unhelpful stuff that moms do? Like annoy the shit out of you be there for you when you're sick?

And yes, sloths have mothers too. 


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